A third bronchoscope

Good morning more than conquerors. At 11 o'clock this morning Ariella will be having a third bronchoscope procedure. This time the procedure will be done in the operating room to provide extra precaution which is something that mom and I are actually okay with, however what this means we are one step closer to a tracheostomy. Mom and I continue to wrestle with whether or not the interventions we are agreeing to are helping Ariella or are they actually setting her back. Years ago during her first intensive care stay the head of Connecticut Children's Medical Center's PICU gave us some of the best advice we had ever received. We asked him what he would do if it were his daughter laying in the bed instead of Ella and he said he would do everything he could to keep from having to perform surgery as long as he was doing things for her and not to her. Mom and I are feeling like we are getting very close to doing things to Ella and not for her. We don't want our baby to be trached but if that's God's will and if that's what gives her the best opportunity to get better and to come home then how selfish would we be by keeping that from her. We are not there yet and at the same time if we go there we won't see that as a defeat because our baby will get to come home. Please pray that God's perfect will is exercised today we will let you know how the procedure goes this morning. Thank you all for your unwavering support it has been a pillar that we have been able to lean on during a very difficult time. We are all more than conquerors.